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- I'm very frustrated. -
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Wednesday, March 02, 2005
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I've gotten so involved (becaue of my job) with this case that I just want it to be over with. Not for me, or for my co-workers who have been tirelessly walking through brush, swamp, leaves, snake pits, etc... but for the family to find some closure.
The Lunsford family seems to be so wonderful. Melissa and I have become like their own children. We spend hours upon hours with them on a daily basis, listening, laughing, praying, but most of all hoping. Hoping for answers. I can walk in to their house, say hi to the family, go to the refridgerator to get water or a Diet Coke, snack, whatever...and it's normal.
You know, one reason I like this blog is because even though I may have (and probably have) told all of you everything that I'm typing, it's still a way to vent. Chris and I go home at night and want to beat our heads against a brick wall, because we will probably get answers faster that way than any other.
Do I think this is an 'inside' deal? Maybe. If it's not, it's completely unexplainable and scary knowing we have someone in this county that likes to take kids. Take kids from the safest part of their lives, their home inside their own bedrooms. If it's not family, it's someone who has been watching us and probably searching with us. That is even scarier.
I hate thinking that this family had anything to do with Jessica's disappearance, because they are just the nicest people in the world. But, then you hear about the BTK case and that suspect, who was a regular and well liked among his church, and community. Can you really trust anyone in this world? Do we start looking at the people inside Jessie's church if all else fails? Definitely. I've heard people say that those that go to church aren't necessarily 'holy'. It's because they have such "messed up lives" that they need to go somewhere where they can feel like they're somebody and get a piece of their lives that is missing. I don't agree. I'm sure that everyone attends a church that has attendees who are there for ulterior motives. But I don't believe that everyone that goes to church is like that. I mean, I go to church and I don't think that my life is that messed up. I have friends who live lives that make me thankful for mine, that don't attend church. What gives? It was kind of an interesting thought though. Will make me look around next time I'm at church. Not to judge, just to imagine.
I'm going to be incredibly upset when and if they find Jessie's body, not alive. I don't personally know her, but after meeting her entire family I could easily see what a sweet, loveable girl she is. But, on the other hand, I will thank God that he has answered some prayers and will help this family sleep at night.
The only thing I ask of you is that you keep praying. Send her webpage (www.jessicamarielunsford.com) to everyone you know. Maybe someone knows something somewhere. Pray not only that she is found, but if not, that in the least, answers are found.
Thanks.
PS. From today on, my blogs will be in different shades of purple, in dedication.
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